Sadly, today my gym shut down their business.
Fortunately, the owners/coaches brilliantly pivoted and went remote, which is awesome....yet the community as we knew it is over.
My heart is so freakin’ heavy.
I sheepishly walked in there January 2018 - DESPERATE- I had spent much of 2017 using a cane and managing pain. I needed to be healthier.
The transformation I experienced was priceless.
First of all...I actually SHOWED UP and to be honest, I walked in terrified EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.
And every day I walked out to my car a WARRIOR!
For the first time I felt physically and emotionally safe in a gym setting. All shapes and sizes were welcome and present. Modifications and scaling was available for anyone at any level of fitness.
Oh how I will miss the community!!
We had daily celebrations of achievement and badassery...support and compassion for life inside and outside the physical four walls of the gym.
2018-2020 were some of the most emotionally difficult years of my life and being present with the community and pushing myself physically supported me in ways I never could have imagined.
3 transformational lessons I learned from the gym:
1. It was never about my weight. People would compliment me on my weight loss and how great I looked...and honestly, it made me cringe.
2. I would smile and share how amazing I FELT. It was always about feeling better in my body, being able to move without pain, to get on and off the floor, to climb stairs without my arms, and to live my best life.
3. I wanted to be seen for the way I was showing up for myself, for that was where the real loss was. The LOSS OF GUILT for putting myself first!
In 2019 when things in my life took some painful twists and turns I struggled to stick with my radical self care. I had pain again and became acutely aware of what a shamp I was at holding my emotions in my body.
Fortunately in the last 6 months I have learned a technique to release them….and am now getting certified in it so I can help others!
This community will always be in my heart, the coaches will always be in my head, and I will continue to move my body, to push myself past the point of my mental comfort zone, to step outside myself and find my inner warrior.
She is there and she is resilientAF!
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